It's bound to end anyway.

Haiihhh

Yeah.

Tomorrow's my last day of work.

hehehe.

I'm kinda sad really.

I don't feel like I'll survive at home, doing things such as the laundry, vacuuming and watching tv.

When I know out there, some people are beautifying the world with potted plants.

Ahahahaha.

I must be weird. I must be.

Tell me something about yourself.

What a way to start an interview, man...

I think I blew it.

They think I was lying when I said it was my first interview.

Since I got put I'm working on the form they asked me to fill in.

My parents thought that was a mistake on my part.

And guess what?

They only started to realize it 5 hours later.

So, after I happy, happy, forgotten all about the nightmare,
they decided to bring it up.

=.=

I hate it when people do that.

KICK ASS!

Ahahahahaha!

Wahh. Such a......umm.....hilarious, gross, weird, unexpected, and interesting movie.

Really. I cannot believe how much they use the F word.

It's like, every minute, mesti ada orang yang cakap,

"What the FUCK are you looking at?"

"What the fuck?"

Or just plain, "FUCK!!"

I felt like screaming, "Don't you have any other word you use to curse??"

hahaha. Well, that was just at the beginning of the movie laa.

As the story progresses, they have less and less opportunity to say the damn word. XD

I doubt it's something that I want to watch again. hahaha.

All the superheroes (kunun) have weird names.

Like the main character, his alter ego is Kick Ass.

And the antagonis is Red Mist.

And my favourite pair of superheroes from the movie,

Hit Girl and Big Daddy.

Ahahahaha~

Weird kaaaann??

Too bad Big Daddy had to die in the middle of the story.

I love Hit Girl's purple wig!

I want owhh.

Yerrr....

Oh, and I found Hit Girl's theme song. It's called Banana Splits.

By an unknown singer/band.

Lysandra is sooo gonna love it. hahahaha!

It's a remix version, I think. 'Cause the original version is sloooow.

And it goes something like this, "One banana, two banana, three banana, four".

la la la lalala la~

la la la lalala la.

How fucking awesome.

Teacher Linnet

Yup, yup.

I got accepted to another interview.

So far, everything that I applied for (except for the UPU thing, since that isn't out yet.)
I got accepted into. Hmm....

I don't deserve you.

Yeah, I feel like I don't.

It's a blessing. To have friends like you people.

I don't know what else to say except thank you.

Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for keeping me company. Thank you, thank you, thank you.


Thank you to all of you. :)

I want to write something that makes people laugh.

Sadly, I cannot think of anything funny right now.

So, I'm writing crap again.

Just to entertain myself. hahaha

Jual ikan (selfish) owh me~

Anonymous

To: Anonymous

I love you, I love you so much that I hate the fact you exist.

I hate you. I hate you so much I want to kill you.

I want to kill you. Too bad, I couldn't, because I don't want to go to hell.

And spending eternity in hell just because of you is not worth my eternity.

Sooooo random.

Yeah.

I just saw a quote that awakened all my hatred.

I wonder when will I finally will be able to let this go...

My Ideal Husband.

hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahah!

I know, so weird kan?

Suddenly. This topic.

XD

Well......I've been thinking about it.

And more than usual, lately.

Which is quite an achievement. Since I never actually thought about it for more than 3 seconds.

hahaha.

I just can't imagine myself married to someone.

Why do people keep asking me this anyway?

Why do they want to know what's my type?

I have no idea what's my type, since I never thought about it.

Not until that extent, anyway.

But, I realized something. Well, some things.

I realized I want someone that I fear.

Someone that I won't tease or pick a fight with.

Because, believe me, if I can walk over him, I will walk all over that dude.

Tease him. Downgrade him. Whatever la that makes me feel superior to him. 

kekekekekekekek *evil chuckle*

And if I have no respect for him, I'd always think that he's bound to cheat on me.

I'd be a possessive girlfriend.

Contact him every night, haunt him with sms-es, suffocating him.

So, yeah.

Get the jest?

Hehehehehe. I need someone that I fear and respect. 

But, of course he has to respect me back.

Or I'll lose that fear.

And starts being a bitch. To him, of course.

XD

Who's that girl in the glass? Oh...it's just me.

Today, I spent most of my time at work alone.

hehehe

No la. Nothing happened.

I was just too terrified of worms, and caterpillars and the likes,

that I volunteered to do something else alone for 4 hours.

But no fear! I brought some plastic gloves already!

I'm gonna wear them the next time we cut those yucky veges.

XD

Angry

Just looking at your name.
Angry
Just by looking at your name.

Angry.

When I look at your name.

The fact that you still exist haunts me.
I want you gone.



emo kan? hahahaha.

I meant it though.

Wretched.

Something unusual happened at work today.

A boy came. He was only wearing boxers, and nothing else.

I think he got vitamin deficiency, because his stomach is like a married man's. You know, those beer bellies? Well, that's what Lysandra called it. 

We were stripping those plastic ropes into tiny pieces at the time, Kong and I.

Grazele was doing some typing at Ling Ling's office.

We were talking when suddenly, we heard a weird voice. 

Then, when I turned, it was that boy. One of my colleagues, Salmiah, instantly clasped her hands over her mouth. And everyone in the front office froze. 

At first, we couldn't hear what the boy was saying.

I thought he was speaking some foreign language. Then, I hear something like, 'saya mau cari kerja'.

Uncle Jude then got up from his seat. Then he asked the boy to leave.

'Teda kerja di sini.' 

The boy still lingered. He began to walk around. He pointed at stuffs, papers lying around.

He said something, but I couldn't hear.

He almost went into the kitchen.

I was thinking, 'Oh no! Grazele!!'.

Kong, however, was laughing. Silently la.

Then he said,'Exhibitionist'.

Because the boy's boxers were falling down. We could see half of his butt.

I couldn't laugh, though.

I had tears in my eyes.

I looked down for a bit, so that nobody can see them.

Uncle Jude even threatened to call the police. He asked Ozile to pick up the phone. 

Then, the boy said something about his dad.

And Uncle Jude said he wanted to meet the boy's dad.

So, he asked him (the boy) to go outside with him.

The boy still lingered in the office, even after Uncle Jude go out. 

Ozile had to go and shut the door. Baru he(the boy) left our sight.

Omigosh. So sad, yet disgusting, and terrifying.

You guys must think that I'm a baad person to think like this.

haiih...

Well....

I thought I was over you. A long time ago. Manatau kan?
It's still pains me whenever I think of you with another girl. haiih.


Sudah la! You are not the one. I guess.






Stop thinking, Linnet. Just stop thinking.









Get my priorities straight.


I have to get all prep up for my SPA8 interview, this 27 April.


I have to read the newspapers from now onwards, to be up-to-date with the current issues.



I have to increase the volume of my voice.



I have to read about politics. Or at least, know the names of the politicians and high ministers in the government.




Yes, I'll be so busy. I'll soon forget about you again.



I hope this feeling will be forgotten too.

Your love, your love, your love, is my drug.

Well. 

My mum finally found out.

About my lost phone.

Boy, was she mad. But it was better than last time I lost my phone.

Yes, this is the second time.

In two years.

D'you know what that means?

I managed to lose a phone every year.

haha.

so not funny.

Omigosh. I want it back!

I want it back!!

I WANT IT BACKKKKK!!!

T.T

Please, whoever you are. Have pity on me. 

Please give it back.

I'mma pray for it every night.

EVERY NIGHT I tell you.

Maybe it's better if I never existed.

Then my parents got less things to worry about.

My heart is crying right now. 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I love you guys soooo much

Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you

Thank you, thankyouthankyouthankyou!

XD

I have nothing particularly interesting to write about today. But I also don't want to leave this blog un-updated.
So I wrote this crap which you are reading right now.
Happy reading! XD

telephone

hello, hello baby

you called?

I can't hear a thing.

The club is bising. 

It rhymes, people! XD

hahahaha! That's what I thought I heard the first time I listen to the song.

Haiih. Macam la Lady Gaga paham B. M'sia. XD

Made some enzyme today. It's not completed yet. We still need about 170 kg of vegetables.

The more rotten they are, the better (Grazele yg bagi info). XD

Ehh. Did we open the enzyme barrels today? Macam teda owh.

Because it was raining. We stayed inside the studio, no?

Alala~

Took some ss pictures. hahahaha!

With Grazele and Kong!

But I'm too lazy to upload now.

Maybe later? XD

Sakali tak pernah lagi kamu nampak tu gambar-gambar. kekekekekeke.

Owh....and I think today is the first time I seen a baby who can pose.

A baby! Can you imagine?!

Aiyah. So cute owh her....her name is Stala. She's the lady boss' almost 2 years old daughter.

I think she is more photogenic than me....

>.<

A part of me is glad I took this job.

I get to fill my head with something.

And think less and less about that jerk.

Another part of me is kinda.....reluctant?

I guess. 

I feel like lazing around the house before I go to further studies.

But I've been lazing around the house for 3 months already. 

It's about time I do something.

I still feel kinda awkward at work. Not as much anymore....

but the feeling is still there.

And I feel uneasy lately.

Fara, are you still alive??

I'm worried la.

Lysandra! You better be alive!

If not.....I'll kill the person who killed you. wakakakaak!

Gila sudah saya.

XD

I'm addicted to Assassin's Creed la.

But the lappie kept on hanging on me.

Ugh! >.<

Fabulously crazy, AGAIN! XD

so.....

I just made a twitter account.

And.....I try to find all, I mean ALL of my friends who have twitter.

Sadly, I only managed to find four so far.

Next, I looked at those people they're following.

hehehehehehe~

Now, this is my favourite part.

XD

I followed who I think might be interesting.

I followed 2 of U-Kiss members.

I followed almost every member of Super Junior who has twitter.

XD

I have no way of telling whether it's really them or not. But I sure as heaven don't care.

I followed them all the same. 

hehehehehe!

Ryeowook oppa. Leeteuk, Kangin, Eunhyuk, Kyuhyun, and I forgot who else.

Mind you, I only followed those who actually tweet in English.

I figured it's pointless to follow someone who tweets in some language unknown to me.

haiih.

I need to learn Korean language.

Ooh! And I followed 3 members from Shinee! XD

Lee Jinki, Kim Kibum and Kim Jonghyun. *melts*

I wonder if Minho and Taemin got twitter?

I can't imagine them having fun in front of a computer.....

XD

Someone made me realize something.

You think I want to be involved in your past love affair ka?

I know la we were friends, but wasn't it a bit too far to want me to get involve in this?

What kind of a friend are you? To ask a friend to do this? huh??

haiih. lega my heart. XD

Can chocolate burns?

'Cause I think....I burned some.

You know those chocolates people use for cakes?

Yeap.

That one.

I burned it! OMG, OMG

adik, I'm sorry!

I shouldn't have let it fry too long.

Now it's more like black rock candy than chocolate. haiih.

I'm sorry.

Happy Easter!!

It's Easter, people!

The Lord has resurrected and has opened the gates to heaven!

Now dead men can live forever in His Kingdom!

I want to go there. Seriously.

But then again, who wants to go to hell? hahaha

Well, I woke up with only 5 hours of sleep.

Yesterday, Easter Vigil's mass lasted for about 2 hours or so.

Ended at 9 something at night. Then daddy brought us to Lido.

I ordered ABC. haha. funny kan?

sudahlah sejuk tu malam, mau makan lagi ABC.

Slept at 12 something. Which explains the 5 hours of sleep.

But I really kesian the people at Papar.

I know they go home at 2 in the morning.

To much celebration and ceremonies.

I went to Stella Maris Church for Easter Mass. Fell asleep at my seat. haha

I saw that boy again. oowh.

So cute owh the little boy.

All the other altar boys all so tall.

He's so short. apa tidaknya? baru 10/9 tahun. wakakaka!

Pulang kampung!!

Yeay!

My dad asked me to drive. From Kepayan to Papar.

Without the P sticker. alala~

But I went to the driver's seat anyway.

I want to master my driving.

I want to bring my friends go out somewhere.

I promised mah.

hehehe

Mati enjin twice on the way. Both at traffic lights. Hadoii!

And almost mati enjin while going up a hill oso.

Punya la.

My mum panic ody.

My dad marah-marah.

Lantak la!

Kamu yang suruh sa drive!

Now deal with the consequences, babe!

My problem is that I don't trust the brakes. hahaha!

I always, always press the clutch first before pressing the brakes.

So, when I have to belok to a junction, I often didn't press the brakes in time.

The car speeds as I pusing masuk junction.

yup, yup. Bahaya kan?

Macam mana kalau ada kereta keluar dari tu junction?

hahahaa!

Sbb tu la sa bilang....

Bring a lot of safety equipments if you want me to drive.

XD

Girls just wanna have fun.

I'm a girl.

And I want to have fun without worrying.

But I can't. Every time my head is in the clouds, something always pulls at my legs, reminding me that I'll fall if I'm not careful.

I hate this feeling.

I really do.

I'm back to being emotional and sad and depressed.

And I hate the western culture.

They only think about hooking up.

Every funny movie or sitcom revolves around hooking up and sex.

Yuck.

What? Are they running out of ideas already?

Give me a name of a sitcom that doesn't talk about sex.

3......2......1

Time's up!

Thought of anything? 

No?

That's my point.

I mean, it's funny sometimes. But when you've seen it over and over and over again....

I feel like barfing.

I am angry.

And instead of acknowledging what (or who) I'm angry at, I decided to unleash my anger

at those stupid westerners.

I won't use the F word.

Since it stands for sex as well.

People think it's cool.

You eff this, eff that.

I don't find it that way at all.

Sorry to all of my friends. I know you guys like to use the F word as well.

I mean no offense.

I'm just unleashing my anger at something else towards something else.

Get it?

hahahaha.

Anger, depression?

I shouldn't have talked about you last night.

Or, rather, this morning. Augh! Whatever la.

I went to bed thinking about you.

Which is very angering and depressing.

Result, I didn't get that much sleep.

And I think I had nightmares.

But I can't remember what they were about.

I deleted everything about you. Everything that reminds me of you.

Yet, I cannot delete you from my mind.

Which pisses me off.

Really bha. You really didn't know how much I value your presence in my life?!

I thought I was ok already.

But just one thing, one small thing that reminds me of you can make me depressed again.

yesh. yesh. I denied it so many times when we were still friends, no?

But the truth is the opposite.

It was the opposite.

Funny how a mere boy can make me mourn so much. 

Jerk.

>:(

Do you remember kiss under the moonlight?

hahaha! 

teda kena mengena bha tu tajuk.

Well, so. Yesterday was my first day of work. eveeerrr~!

My first employment. XD

o gosh. I feel so grown up already.....T.T

So, what happened? Well, first thing in the morning, I overslept. gyahaha.

Oh wells.

I had to shower like Flash from Justice League and shove my breakfast into my mouth like....um...like something you never seen before. 

Vulgar, yes, I know.

 I was in a hurry bhaaa.

Then, I followed my mum to her office.

I didn't exactly go to her office. I waited downstairs.

 Walking at KWSP and checking out the shops. Most of which, at the time, wasn't even opened yet. Since it was 7.30 in the morning.

I went into one of the early buka ones. It was something like kedai runcit. What's the word in English?

Uhh.....sundry shop?

Convenience store?

Astaga. They have so many names for different kinds of shops. Nevermind. 

I found some tasty snacks. But so expensive ohhh. 

Even the cheapest keropok is RM2.

Adui. Hangus dompet sia.

XD

Went to the landscape office at 8 o' clock.

There's this person watering the grass in the front lawn.

 He was watching me. 

I was watching him, 

while my mum parked the car nicely at the side of the road.

Then, when I got out of the car, dia lari pegi blakang rumah. 

Aikk.

I don't remember his face though.

=.="

My mum insisted on looking at the office first, so she followed me to the office. 

Found out Grazele and Kong is already there.

Oh, good. I have friends. XD

Technically, Kong isn't really a friend. Yet. hahaha.

I just met him once before.

And I only remember his family name. Which is....Kong.

ah. takpa la.

XD

They say start working at 8.30. But we only lepak around. Until the meeting started at 10 something.

haha. wah. First day of work, kena suruh pegi meeting.

I was really nervous.

I have no idea what to call my boss. Seriously.

Should I follow Grazele and call her Auntie Nana?

Or should I follow the workers and call her Miss?

Since it was my first day, I was kinda...lost. 

I still feel lost now. XD

Betul ka apa tu boss cakap?

We have to play football??

On Labour's Day??

At Jesselton Point?!

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Did I ever mention I hate balls?
>.<




Sorry. I didn't get to chat with you last night.
I was too tired, akibat teda tidur petang. hahaha.


I hope tonight I can. :) 

Speaking of chatting. It's been a while since I chatted with Vivian and Nini.
And Lysandra and Chyna of course. haha.
 They're at the army (as Lee Wei said it).
XD