I read your diary.

So. 

I'm coming home, people!!!

muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~

14 sept to 21 sept.

O-migosh. I cannot wait.

xD

And there's another thing.

From now on, I don't care.

I'll be as selfish as I can be.

I'll be as weird as I can be.

I'll be as Sabahan as I can be.

See la if I give a damn.

Play Girl

I am scared of myself.

Hahahahaha.

Never thought I would say this, but I want to go to an all-girls university. =.=

It's just too difficult.

No, no, nonononono.

I must be thankful with everything that I have right now.

I must be thankful.

Yesh.

So much for the high hopes.

Wo ai ni.
And then tarik balik. What kind of a man is that?!
Tiapa la.
I'll play along. Ngehehehehe~


It's hard to get along when we barely know each other.
Baru sebulan dua jumpa dan berkenalan mah.
Hahahaha
I wish you guys were here.
It's so hard. Being different from others.
Sometimes, it's ok.
But my patience has its limit. Please don't forget that I am human too.
Being different can be tiresome and annoying.
I wish you guys were here. :(

Everything I'm not ready for.

I blew it.

I totally blew it.

My first Maths Test, I mean.

Aiyah.

I studied, okay.

I don't know why I was so nervous in front of the stupid paper.

Couldn't even remember how to multiply.

Shit.

I wanna cry. Let me retreat to my shell and cry my eyes out.

I've got the magic in me~

 When I think about everyone coming home for Raya, I wanna cry.

I wanna come home too.

But I'm too far from Sabah.

And all of the non-muslims are not going back.

Let's see. How many of us Sem 1 people are non-muslims?

Oh yeahh. Around 25 people.

Out of 4000 intakes.

That doesn't even make 1%

So, my dad said, "it's ok it you wanna stay."

Thus, I'm staying.

I wonder if they have any sales during Raya.

Mesti ada kan?

I MUST go and see.

I seriously have a problem.

Which I need to correct right away!

Omigosh. I am becoming what I've always dreaded.

=3=

Found some good friends here.

But they are quite blunt with words.

So, prepare to be surprised with my changes in the use of profanities.

Although, I will try my best to minimize my usage of it. xD

I don't want to be like everyone else.

Found a good guy friend too.

We like the same things.

We have the same taste.

Too bad, he's of different religion.

So, we had to 'bataskan pergaulan'.

Sad laaa.

As we all know, I'm not good at verbal communication.

Besides, action speaks louder than words.

But here, actions are limited.

Even amongst the same gender.

Bila lagi kita bule hang out?

My SOLUTION~

I......am a mess.

Not really.

But still. Kacau betul my mind.

I am not sure of anything anymore.

I could be a playgirl.

I could also be a geek.

But then again, I....

I dunno, I dunno. I DON'T KNOW!

Let me focus on my goal. Please.

I only have short term goal.

I have no idea what is my long term goal.

What should I do? What should I do?

Enjoy all this?

Or take everything seriously?

How do people balance their lives?

Teach me.

I really don't know.

Stress aku.

I am changing. Damn.

Waiting for somebody to tell me it's my turn to decide.

Homesick.

Not that bad la.

hahaha.

I still enjoy being here amongst friends, lecturers, crushes. Ehem.

No bha.

Heee. OKay. Back to the point. I want to go home.

Nanti cuti raya kamu semua pulang Sabah.

Saya pun tak mau ketinggalan~

Huhuhuhuhu.

You know, cuti raya starts at 10th of september.

But most of my friend (well, okay, all of them) are going back at 3rd of September.

That means twooooo weeks of holiday.

And I'll be stuck here.

It's too late to book a plane ticket now.

And I promised my roomate, Itau, that I'll be staying here for raya.

alaaaaaaaa~

Guess I'll see you guys in November.

Lee Wei!!! When oh you fly to America?

September? NOOOOO.

T.T