One's patience is only until.....

ArGh! Tidak tahan sudah!~


I feel like quitting already.
Everything I do and think seems to be offensive. Or defensive. Or possessive.

My goals lately:

-Study until late morning.
-Sleep for 6 hours a day.
-Finish all assignments.
-Live a balanced and healthy lifestyle.
-Must finish all assignments! Even if that means not enough sleep or eat.
-Study every chance I get.
-No dawdling.
-Relax. All work and no play makes Jill a dull girl.
-Be generous with my things.
-NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH MY STUFF! I don't trust yoooouuu~
.....and etc., etc.


Can you see how I contradict my own thoughts??


I'm beginning to fear myself. Like really fear myself.